Forgive me, but I am weary of the church.
Possibly I need to see a therapist. I expect a good one could help me sort out all the reasons for my persistent discontent. My feelings run up and down a range from sympathetic disappointment to outraged disgust.
Understand now, I have been a "churchman" for the past 45 years! It stands to reason that much of my disillusionment arises from my own failures and inconsistencies.
Still, the older I grow the more uneasy I become about the whole church enterprise as I observe it today.
There is no doubt that my feelings and my angst arise from my daily experience in the city among very poor people. But these emotions also come as a result of my movement in and among the church and church people.
Then, I must admit, it is not really the people of the church individually, at least not for the most part (!), with whom I have an ongoing beef.
It is something about how the church determines to use its resources, including its time, its talent, its public voice and its material wealth. My observations around these matters trouble me greatly, especially in view of the reality facing so many poor, struggling people in this country and around the world.
Rock stars, actors and sports personalities have more to say and are up to more in terms of actively addressing the issues facing suffering people than are church leaders and church folks.
This is not to say that there is no interest in the church about these challenges. It is just that the church spins its wheels and so quickly loses its focus. Its considerable creativity and energy ends up, more often than not, being spent on itself and its members.
Why is this the case? How can the church remain so immobilized in the face of so much human misery, much of which could be alleviated with just a little more effort?
So, today we will march off to church one more time, won't we?
What will happen there?
What will be said? What will we sing? About what will we pray?
Where will our tithes and offerings go?
What will it all matter?
We claim to be there to "worship God," to "praise God's name."
But, what will our God think? How will God regard our exercises today in view of what God knows about this world?
Meditation for today: Amos 5:18-24